A visit from the Divine Father

It was a quiet Saturday morning, just before dawn, and I was up sitting cross-legged resting my back against my headboard. Another early morning meditation like most days, filled with rich experiences.  I always enjoy mediating before the sun rises for the stillness is an invitation to explore the depths of my inner world and my relationship with the divine.

As I deepened into my intimate world of silence, I felt emotion rise up within me and tears began to softly flow. As the tears streamed down my cheeks, I calmed myself and noticed the energy in my room shifting. My house was filling up with angels and I sensed the energy and enormousness of this gathering. I could not see anything but I felt it. It was as though the dimensions were opening up and the angels were cascading down filling my room and home. I didn’t think too much about it because I am used to feeling the presence of divine beings around me. As I sat perceiving in stillness, I heard these words, “Why do you weep child? For the glory of God is upon you.” I thought for a brief moment about what I was hearing. The glory of God is upon me? There was an indescribable feeling that came over me as I focused upon those words. The most profound sense of home and love filled me.

As the words penetrated my mind and body, the glory of God covered me and my heart began to expand. I felt a pressure within my chest as His holy presence engulfed me. I then heard, “Nothing is hidden from the glory of God. Nothing can hide from the glory of God.” I struggle to find the words to adequately describe the full impact of those words.

I felt a beautiful release occur within me because knowing that all is laid bare before God was comforting, not fearful. I repeated the words over and over in my mind, slowly, again and again. Each time I said those words to myself, the sense of complete love and inner freedom deepened. I released everything and gave it all to God. I knew He was loving my total being with absolute and unconditional acceptance. We were in an exquisite communion that was fulfilling beyond my ability to fully express with words. I wanted to experience the feeling over and over for it was wondrous. I bore no shame or need to hide anything; there was only complete acceptance and union.

With my arms outstretched, I received His glory wholly and deeply. I spoke to Him and said, “I give myself to you fully. My heart and my mind are yours.” With intention, I opened up for God to see all that I am. I had no humiliation nor self-judgement for there was nothing within me that caused any separation nor punishment from God. He was absolutely embracing and I let go. God saw everything, conscious and unconscious, and it didn’t matter. He only saw my purity and divine wholeness.

He saw it all but the all didn’t matter – as though none of it really existed. I think this is where we get the notion that our life is an illusion. I now understand this teaching because all the emotional stuff we carry around is not who we are and before God, it is nothing.

I surrendered myself to God. My heart, mind, body and spirit were open to His glory and I drank in the purity of the experience. There was something about the words spoken to me that gave me tremendous liberation, security, and empowerment. Rather than fearing His majestic presence and some looming sentencing and punishment or banishment, I felt complete union and embracing love that held neither judgment nor condemnation. It became easier to surrender than to hold onto my burdens. I profoundly sobbed out of sheer joy. The experience lasted about thirty minutes and as it subsided, I felt extreme fatigue and I went to sleep. Later that afternoon, the experience took place again. And as in the morning, after His holy presence receded, I felt weak and exhausted. I have not been the same since this visit for I realize much that I have been taught about God is false.

We have all been taught to fear God. We have been taught there is some form of punishment coming and that God is a God of judgment, condemnation and separation. We have all been taught God is far away from us and inaccessible. My experience today showed me otherwise. God visited me and our union was undeniable. My true self as pure love was undeniable. My misdeeds and emotional wounds were and always are seen by God and they are not barriers to his love of me. Like a parent to a child, His love for me just is - automatic, natural, and unconditional. I met God, my creator, prime source today. I am humbled and filled with sheer joy. I have asked Him to visit me again and I am absolutely certain He will again send a distinguishable aspect of Himself to commune with me.